For the first time in forever I am sat by the pool happy and content, I’m not worrying about my size (I’m not fat but I’m bigger than my usual) I’m not worried about what other people think, I’m just doing me! I have really had to fight hard with myself about my body confidence, every single round has ruined my body in some way or another. Whether it’s been internal or external the changes are there!! And I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that those changes are out of my control. I can diet I can exercise and I can be as healthy as possible but those hormones are going to change it regardless. People close to me get annoyed I think at the way I am about my body because I simply just can’t be happy fat, I’m happy in a 10 (I am aware 10/12/14 isn’t “fat” but for myself it is) I’d rather be an 8 but I’m happy in a 10.
Every round I have to pick myself up mentally, have to start from scratch and build myself back up to happy. And every round I have to build myself up physically. This last round I gained 1.5stone!! A friend said “it’s 1.5stone of sexy” what an amazing way to look at it haha!
Ladies that have had a baby don’t beat themselves up about their weight gain cos they have had a baby so atleast they gained something out of it, a couple of stone and a beautiful baby or two, I just gain weight, heartache and have to start again!! Now unfortunately I am one of those ppl that are really hard on themselves and get really upset when I don’t look the way I want to, so I change myself, tattoos, diets, filler & Botox, hair colour, a shitload of squats!! But it makes me feel better about myself!! I enjoy making the changes that are in my control cos I have no control over anything else. A lot of people won’t like it but I do and so does my OH so what harm is it doing?? None! My Body My choices My life…it’s just me!! I embrace the changes I make myself just like I’m having to embrace my scars from surgery’s, my stretch marks from pregnancy’s I have lost, big boobs from meds and pregnancies, cellulite from my last round, darker thread veins in my legs from last round, pigmentations from medication and so much more!!
Learn to love your body, love yourself, love your scars, embrace it all, embrace your journey and what your body has been through and be proud of yourself and your body 😍
“Beauty is the opposite of perfection – it’s about confidence charisma and character”